Dear Clair Day,

i loveee youuu. i have so many things to say to you, but i know you'll never get a chance to hear it. im soo sorrrrrry. im sorry that i never commented to you on facebook or called to seee how you were or waht was up. i had no idea. i thought i had all the time in the world. i know we were never really that close, but i miss you so much. you have no idea. this is the biggest regret ill ever have. i never got a chance to get to know the real you, spill our hearts out to each other, or anything... all i can think about is why i wasnt more thoughtful... our parents talked 24/7 why didnt i ask to say hi to you? i know its the past and im suppose to let it go, but honestly, i just cant. not this one. i still remember spring of 2007. it was so nice to see your face again. i couldnt imagine a more perfect cousin than you. you had straight A's all through your life, you had big dreams, you were the best artist i ever knew, you were good at pottery, you got so many awards, and the list is endlesss. im nothing compared to you. you know, you inspired me. you're the one who got me to be wanting to be a neurologist. my mom always told me how perfect you were, and i always thought to myself, thats how i want to be. and its not even just that. you werent just perfect in school, but also in personality. you had soo much patience and kindnesss. i always wondered how you did it all. i cant stop crying. the tears wont stop flowinggg. i hope that wherever you are, you know that i love you and i cared for you a lot. i wish i got a chance to say that if you ever needed anything, i would be here. well ill take care of timothyy for you. i talked to him today. i promised that he would get a chance to go to disneyland. i dont even know why im writing this anymore. fuck. you'll never see this fucking blog. -_-
im so mad right now. do you know how many people you're affecting right now?!!?!?
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I love you,
Wynnie Day Young