Nobody Said It was Easy

ahh, another state of confusion and depression -_- -_-
HAH well not exactly depresssionnn, but i honestly dont even know anything anymore
& i hate that feeling. sighhh im drifting apart from everyone, but its not like i really mean too.. i just idk i dont knowww wahhh i just seriously want someone who can be there for me and be a good listener. i think its pretty rare to find people liek that these days. people are so absorbed into their own lives and i dont blame them, because i guess i am tooooo. i think that's why i like meeting new people because you start out talking alot, and they try and get to know you and you try to get to know them. & its like this whole new exciting process! the problem is, where do i meet people?!
the other thing is, i dont even understand myself anymore. i dont even know where im going, waht i want, what im aiming for -_- everyones always telling me what to do, making the choices for me.. maybe thats one of the reasons why im so undecisive -____- mmm, i need to find myself (i know, lameee, clichee.. etcc) or have someone find me! you know how sometimes you meet someone and you can just be yourself? and be comfortable around them? and spill your heart out and know that you can trust them one hundred percentt?! and then somehow you're okay with life again and you feeel better and you just kinda know what makes you happy, sad, angry, etc.. HAHawell yeah i need to meet someone liek that. not necessarily boyfriend wise , but yeah HAHAH
well im sick and tired of complaining about life, because life is suppose to be precious and cherished- _-

as if.
i bet that idea came from the renaissance age -______- HAHHA




SO ANYWAYS! this weeeks beeen longggg and saddd
but good at the same time! talked to jason adauto and tiki chavez more!
went to cabaret night w/ tiki
it was.......................................................................................
HAHAH (=
jk, it was really goooood! but he's such a rude person! texting while the choir is singing.. TSKK
HAHAHAHAH <3333
mmm, it was nice though. a change! yayy a good change. talking to him makes my day bettter
esp at 12 amm. makes me feel less alonee. HEHHh
cant wait for oct. 17! fun fun funnnnnn