Come On, Come Out

"As I say the words, I realize how true they are. And maybe that's the trick to getting through it, through life: realizing that everybody, including ourselves, is lugging around some kind of screwed-up baggage. Maybe we are put here to help each other carry the loads."
MMM i havent blogged for awhile. i wonder if anyone reallly reads all this shit. hahah but then again i dont reallly care. its somewhere where i write all my feelings and where i vent everything out. well actually not really. i keep it PG in here :) mmm sometimes i wish that my blog could help people out there.. i know, kinda weird. i try to be as optimistic as i can.
idk, but im starting to hate those blogs where everyone is just complaining about life instead of DOING something about it. if you're life is so horrible, why not take a stand and change it? or is your life really not that bad? and you're just craving attention from everyone and exaggerating? i mean, of course we all have our share of "screwed-up baggage" so learn how to deal with it. whats the use of pouring it all out to the world to see? no ones gonna come to your rescue and help you sort your life out. i guess the thing is, that world doesn't exist. All growing up means is that you realize no one will come along to fix things. thats for you to do.
ANYWAYS
i love winter break while it lasted. i did so many things :) im on better terms with my sister too! she took me to wing stop to eat and we went shoppign together and i almost even went ice skating wiff her boyfriend. thehe. 2009 was not my greatest year. but things can only get better right? i have a feeling 2010 will be a great year. especially when i can drive in the summer ;)
well thats if i pass my license test -______- i spent New Years Eve with my best friend celina lee, syliva, cynthia, sean, kevin, bryant, and nick :) learned how to play bang... the FUNNEST things ever. stayed up for 25 hours. went to the rose parade to help pass out rose parade brochures. i was so wired. my energy just kept going and going... it was kinda weird. everyone else around me was dead and i just wanted to do more things -_- HAHA i swear, sometimes i think something is wrong with me. im either super hyper or super tired. i was thinking about making new year resolutions.. but i have no idea.. i mean i dont htink i have any really bad habits or anything.. so i guess to be happy and to work hard? -_- lame ones.
as nerdy as i sound.. i REALLY want straight A's this year. im so close to it.. i think im gonan kill myself studying -____- ha ha har. oh blimey.
i dont think people actually read super long blogs so bye byes.
have a great new year <3
FRESH START.