"Like all of a sudden I didn't fit in anywhere. Not at school, not at home... and every time I turned around, another person I'd known forever felt like a stranger to me. Even I felt like a stranger to me."
thanksgiving break was a bore. actually, no its was LONLEY. i dont know. i feel like i cant connect with anyone anymore. not even my family. my favorite cousin is goneee. everyone in my family is older. and its dissappointing to see the things they do. well, i always have my friends. but they seem like they have so much going on, and i cant just disrupt that. so here i am. back to the beginning. anti social and a bit pessimistic -____- ive just been reading, reading, and reading. it takes my mind off things. i love being wrapped up into it. i think i prefer reading over talking to people -_- i havent been on aim for weeks. facebook is ehh. everything is just so dull. i want to LIVE already. i want experience falling in love. i want to see the world. i want CHANGE. i want to stop being bitter. ignorance IS bliss. when have i become like this? i dont even know myself anymore. who am i?
mmm this is just NOT my year. or the past two years havent been really treating me well. i hate the weather. its winter. well its SUPPOSE to be. but why isnt my nose red from the cold? where is the cold wind that brushes against my face? its NOT winter till im all bundled up with a starbucks peppermint hot chocolate in my hand. what is this world coming too!? -_- if polar bears become extinct, i will shoot someone.
Monday, November 30, 2009
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